Emotions Unexcepted

BOORING!!!

2007-10-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

Today was BOORING!!!
I spent my day in the house doin nthn but chores n smoke… like WTH!!!
But nonetheless…I still took advantage of those lame tyme n decided to went to shop to rest my mind a little and had a little fresh air…but dat was only fer a few moments…aargh!!!

Until juz now…I decided play wif d internet awhile…though my electric bill for September had went out of limit…hang on…I need to switch off d lights ferst…k back…ermm…yeah…I was blamed fer it…when all I did dat minth was to brain storm…WTH…again…heeks…and juz now…my mom nag again…fer usin dis comp…I ONLY USED IT FER TODAY YA NOE!! Sian neeeh…but now…I gut nthn else to do but to wait fer my mom to go to werk…so dat I cud go crazy again n smoke around…though my ferst sis is home…heeks…

Dunno why but I can’t seem to wait fer tmr fer skul…hahah…

~AaphOt~

Hari Raya

2007-10-14T18:43:00.000+08:00

As usual…I went fer Hari Raya prayers in d morning…juz like evry year…den…listened to sum speech…n I find it kindda useful u noe…heeks…it was sumthyn about our werld dat we’re livin in…after everythyn I’ve went through dis year…Ive decided to put in a straight line…aaand maybe…a little curve…in my life’s path…hehs…den after d prayers…of course largh…went to shop den go smoke…juz becuz d fasting month is over…heeks…

Wen it's tyme to leave...my family n I made apologies to one another...and after years...I can't believe I went emo again n cried...heeeks...cuz d last tyme I cried was wen I was in primary 3 or 4...I'm not sure

As for yesterday as well as today…was fun n FIIUH…wooohoo. I went to not much house…but hey…dis is wat I gutta tell…my sibs n I oready felt tired wen we only wen to the ferst two houses of these two days…
Yesterday…I only counted a little of wat I’ve collected…no mood…until juz now…to find out fer only two days…I’ve mange to collect…quuuiiite a lot…wen in total…I went to only 4 houses…hehs…

And yeah
Mira…my faaaar away cuzzy…
Gave me a Hari Raya card…heeks…
Loves to her…

Wow…
Well dats it…
Sry fer nut updating ma blog…
Gut kindda busy wif studies n chores…
Here’s wishin evry islam Selamat Hari Raya…
N to d rest…
Happy Break Time/Short Hols

~AaphOt

P.S.Members…biler nak kuar niik???especially Seha Stylerz…heeks…luv them lots… (:

Avril Lavigne

2007-09-23T14:29:00.000+08:00

Ouh yar...
one more thyng dat i fergut fer today

I gut d latest news of celebs...
I bet nut many of u guys noes bout dis

Avril Lavigne
has gut a new best friend of hers these days
can u guess hu???
hah...
dun be shock cuz IIITTT'SSS

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BRITNEY SPEARS!!!

Shocked?!?!?!
Well it's true!!!
I gut to noe bout dis ystrdy
Hah
I'm advance huh
heeks

Sooo
dats it fer today
In 'Celeb's Latest News'

Multy-purpose

2007-09-23T10:14:00.000+08:00

Yestrdy I went to study at wdlns library wif my cuzzy; Shazmira, Nifa, Nad n Dan
We studied from 12 till 7 n den had our breakfast after dat at bazaar
Dan n Mira gave mi a treat…heeks

DEEENNN
Mira n mi wanted to buy burger
Wen we wok suddenly clash wif Multy-purpose sei
She was like, ‘Oi’
Wah…as if we gut no name
I looked up n aaaas usual
I saw her nose ferst lah
Den in my heart I was like
‘Alamak…idong(nose) uuhs’
I realized it was her, ferst
I looked at Mira
Eventually she dun noe why I looked at her n said Multy-purpose
Until Multy-purpose herself tapped her on her shoulder
She was shock
N I was like beside her giggling
Toktoktok den went to buy burger
We looked at each other n laughed
AHAHAHA
Damn funny largh sei

We ate
Den went to d restroom around McDonalds
D restroom was new n high tech largh
Cuz it has an electronic door
All of us waited outside until d doors closes
Den we quickly rush to press d open button
Lame sia…but funny
We laughed our lungs out until ppl looked at us
AHAHAHA

After d lame things
We wok home laughing aaaaalllll d way
Terribly terribly lame
But funny
Haks
So dats all largh
But ystrdy
We went out early to study
But we only covered nut until 50% of our homework
AHAHAHA

~~~~~~~~~~AaphOt~~~~~~~~~

NDP...

2007-08-10T12:31:00.000+08:00

Friday,10th August 2007
Yesterday was a day…I tend to wake up early and play d internet…once it comes to afternoon…I went out to city hall…wimmy sis Muna…to watch fireworks…once thre…wah d sianz things strts to hppen…fuckin packed n crowded…police evrywhre… I held Muna’s hand to cut thru…n it gave me hopes to be a guy…citylink cnnot go thru so we went to another exit lah…like duhness…evrywhre was packed…while Muna kept on hittin ppl…I kept on hold girl’s hand…which I ahte to touch gerl’s hand whom I dun noe…heekz…

Cut thru cut thru…cross traffic…police evrywhre again…den go underground…den go up…luckily we din take d escalator…cuz ppl all impatient…they tend to squize…den ppl who have reached to d top all wok slowly..so all d ppl on d escalator got stuck…a gerl kept on shoutin hre n thre…wah…so irritatin…feel like smackin her…

Deeen…cut thru cut thru…all muz cut thru one…I not cnnot reach thre…n finally…we gut thre…B Boys evrywhre(Bangla Boys)…me n Muna wondered why are they thre wen it’s nut their country…cn I noe…pls pls plsss…ppl muvin hre n thre…I was behind Muna…like couples…den got a group of evgian so irritatin kept on pushin…den they wok awy…stupid ryyyte…I told Muna…’aku knal lah bdk2 nik’…den 1 of’em was like…evrgreenn…wat evr fuck…den I was like’ah ah…prangai mcm setan’…den gut diz one B Boy…sooo irritatin…his mouth so smelly siaaa…smell like shit siaaa…seriously…me n Muna were like…’siak uh…bau taik sioool’… den diz dat diz dat… den…FIREWEEERKZZ…ppl were like…whoaaahh…the fireworks went on three tymes…ferst ooone…few seconds…second ooone…5-10 mins…den ppl strted to move oready while some stayed…like me n Muna…cuz we noe gut d third one…third one…5-10 mins…

Den we go meet Muna’s fren…go tcc…to rest…AIRCOOON…finally…ordered n ate…den…we gut to know dat they only accept credit cards n cash ony…we were like…siiaalllaaahhh…I rush down to look fer ATM …search hre thre…go back tcc…tok to Muna…den go back down…I tot I wok d wrong way…I dun noe whre’s d Raffles Place MRT… to meet my sis…to take cash…den go back…met Muna…den one of d sevicer said dat d nearest is d Raffles Place MRT…as if like it’s vry far…wok left ryte left ryte…front den back again…den found d place n drew cash …wen go back gut to noe dat we cn wok straight…WTF…n oso dat d path dat I took earlier was ryte…WTF again…Khai…Muna’s fren was at d tcc alone…soo sian…n tcc was like closing down…so ran ferst…stopped…took off my slippers…den run bare legged…once near…stopped…put it back on…den run to tcc…tcc was like clossin down…thre’s ony a small of group of Chinese ppl at d ferst floor…went up…wah…dim oready… Khai was alone…pity sia…good dat he’s cute…hey…I’m a guy ok n I’m straight…went to our place…Finish up my Oreo Mocha…den Muna came…she finished hers…paid d bill…thanked them n left…lepaakzz awhile den went home…Khai said dat he was scared oready…

Wah…to think again…Marina was nvr den kind of packed bfore…so far dat i've known lah...cuz ony diz year they did NDP at Marina…n everyone was thre…

~~~~~~AaphOt~~~~~~~

Today...

2007-07-24T20:38:00.000+08:00

Tuesday,24th July 2007
Physics was as per normal today as ever…evry1 was concentratin…all nice2 mood….until JinSheng…peciak lobang leh…he did his maths hmwerk in d class…during physics…WTH was dat all about?!?! But so sian…2 period…bo pian neh

Next…maths…2 period oso…sian neh…but I was concentratin…no choice…havn’t been concntratin…n I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND!! HOW COOL WS DAT?!?! Heh…

After recess…bought chocolate pokky , since thre’s no strawberry…den bring to class…Chem. Period eat while studying…Daryan sebok uh…Zul oso…Zul…dun think I’ll mizz ya out ok…I remmbred clearly…both of them asked fer it…if it’s about Chem…I’ll always sit beside Nifa n we always mange to focus wif each other beside…though we play around…we always focus during Chem….

Den mothr tongue…sit beside her oso…n 1 thyn..we’ll always turn back to look at d cute n handsome sweet lokin Halim…haaa*meltin*…kk inuf…

English!!!! Wah…I had been really concntratin on my studies these days…even English…fun sey…hee…2 periods did compre…d 1 I had been waitin fer…cuz I am always weak in dat part…as in the whole class…1 thyn about our class is dat we gut a 1 in a million kindda brains…easy qns our class cnnot ans but other classes…diff qns our class CAN ans but other classes…funny hooor…nvm…final 30 mins…we did voting fer our food act fer 15 mins…den another 15 mins…two ghost stories…we off d lights n doors…ShiongHua wanted to close d windows den Ms Mazlinda was like ”ei…u 1 us all to choke of air uh”…he was juz playin around…1 funny thyn mentioned by Ms Malinda…”during studying tyme uh…u always sleep…wen it cums to diz how cum ur awake uh?”…den d whole class laughed…

Den wen Ms Maz 1 to strt…HongKiat distratd n was caught huggin Boom Te-tek(BoonChuan)…d whole class was like…HongKiat gaaay…kindda stuff…LAME…I was laughin at 1 side…or is dat lame??? Nvm…

After skul…Nifa Mira Yat n myself skipped CC(CreativeCircle) n go to library to study…sooo keco…n 1 thyn…since the three of them(Nifa Mira Yat)had been pickin on mi…I decided to do my sad emo face like I always did..but at d same tyme…I was thynkin bout d sad things lar…so it really turned up REAL…cool ryte…I WIN…nvm
But if u guys wanna win den it’s ok loor…den finish hmwerk…go Mac…wif Wanie along…Mira had been pickin on her…but ended up to be a joke…

Missin:
All my frens…dance members…n d one hu I treat as part of my life…M.S.A….wanna noe hu’s M.S.A….den come to mi n I’ll tell u…hre is tooo revealin…rumours spread ya noe…likka likka virus…

~~~~~~~~~AaphOt~~~~~~~~

Waah...

2007-07-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

Friday,20th July 2007
Wow...it hsa been ages ever since I blog...heh...wif so much thyngs happenin n to do...I dun thynk I cud cope that easily...
Had a charity bazaar just now...DAMN COOL n FUN BEBEH...WOOOH...but I din manage to spend all my tyme there…cuz I had my E.P. games(emergency preparedness)…it was fun though…
Lets see…diz year…I use lots of $$…tyme…&&…&&…dunno lah…but I’m sure it’s a lot…hee…*twees*
I made luts of friends…n rivals too…I’m popular…in a negative way…had fights…wif friends…&&…I CANNOT DANCE ANYMOOOOORE!! Like shit ryyyte…all tnx to my family lar….wat sey…kk…nvm…ferget it…
Gut back on track wif my baby…Milo…&&…I think I gut spares…heee…too private…cnnot say it hre…later it spreads…like a virus…multiplyin…&&…wateve lar…u noe ppl nowadays…dunno d meanin of secrecy…oooor…they juz cannot keep their mouth shut….
*psst*…I gut a crush on diz guy…n he’s fuckin cute caan….
Kk…inuf of that…eerm…I dun thynkl there’s anymore things I wanna say…hang on…phone call…k back…soiyoh…gut no more werds maaah…if tok…say tok too much…if I dun…den say I like waat…ouh yar…1 more thyn…Mira…as in Roshazmira…my classmate…is actually my cousin…heee…I hope fer d werld to be a better place n respect ppl…n ppl like mi n ayu…

~~~~~~~~Aaphot~~~~~~~

Dance members day out(Poshpalett)...

2007-04-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

I loved yesterday…it’s Poshpalett’s day out…we went to Bugis in the ferst place…by bus…I was wf Sap…Ju n Yayat…Shai alone…solo..emo…so sad she…hee…Sap Shai n me gut sleepy…serious siah…d trip like…is like u cn shower until ur anti-germs u noe…sooooo long…

Den wen we reach Bugis…go in circles…den go buy food…take MRT den go Marina Pierre…wah…so fun siah…over thre….we sit around…roll…dance…run(padahal tempat org romantik2 she…mcm tk salh gtuk…)…explore(though thre’s nthn thre)sit thre…camwhore!!!so many pics she… enjoy until at night…camwhore again…den… hah…hre comes the most fuckingly stupidly un part lah…we played a stupid game whre every of our dance members were suppose to do smthyn to each n every other dance members…so sian she but fun…dats all lah….but the trip n everythyn whre long…it took d whole day but fun…eleborate only…too long lah…dun expect me to tell evrysingle letter ryte???Heh…

~~~~~~~Aaphot~~~~~~~

Yesterday...

2007-04-21T10:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I had a performance of malay dance at school fer the honours day…finally…the malay dance is over…at ferst…I tot everything…I mean fer dance…isa gonna over oready…skali gut the evg dance performance…after exams…wat the….k lah…I’m ok but I’m tired…

After the honest day…me n my frends ate a lot of food…cuz it’s nut eaten n thre’s still so much more…so we packed them home…n ate outside school…hehe…joke here n thre…send Nabillah n Zul home ferst wf Yayat...den send Yayat…I send him until the traffic light near his block onlyden I go cuz scared later gut his mother at the corridor watchin…den I go…by the tyme my cigarette oso finish oready…I threw it aside den saw my ex-teacher hu taught me civics n moral last year…luckily I finish smoking oready…I looked at her…gave her the pissed off look den looked down…she cross by oready den I looked up back…sian neh

Last nyte…I fought wf my family…they push me sooo much…so hard…pilling me up wf chores…thre2…my mom…naggin ryte now…ass…I feel like killin my self siah…she made me loose my mood…so sian neh…den yesterday…everyone…n I mean everyone…pushed me so much…they only think fer themselves…n dun think bout other’s feelings…den I cnnot take it…I went into the room n made 3 slices of deep cut on my left arm…a lot of blood flow down…I smoke…spray the room wf perfume…den take my ‘anti drugs/know drug’…open up a page after the final update and wipe my blood on it…den I ryte things beside it…so ass ryte…

N I gut to know dat my guy flirted wf other guy…lik ass ryte…fucker…I hate him laa…he’s makin me suffer u noe…feel like breakin up wf him…but dun 1…but 1…but dun 1…I sacrifice n did sooo much fer him…but it doesn’t seem like he is doin so fer me…juz like I’ve said before…he is such a coward laa…cnnot fyte back…nvr use his brains…he is juz like he’s frends…all no brain 1…all cnnot stand on their own 2 feet…

K lah k lah…inuf insulting oready…I really gut to go ryte now...do chores den go out meet Ju Shai n Sap…I hate my life ryte now…n I hate people hu made me suffer soo much n pisses me off big tyme

~~~~~~~Aaphot~~~~~~~

No Seha style...

2007-04-19T20:43:00.000+08:00

Boring day fer today…2 days …no 3 day of not inuf sleep…very tired leh…juz now send Mira home wf Yayat…we a new played a game..a game whre we were not allowed to say ‘Seah style’ or anythyn bout her…n hu ever does kena forfeit…and it comes to no use…CUZ W/O SEHA STYLE NTHN WUD BE ALIVE!!!. Fun seh…but lame…but fun…but lame…waaat ony…send Mira home den my turn wf Yayat…he was like…eh*pointin to sumthyn*…I din see…but instead I went…”ouh…I must see???”…n he was like…”yeah”…den I ask…”whre/what???”…den he show…I lokked…n den I was like…”ooouuhhh”…LAME SIAAA…BCUZ NO SEHA STYLE…HAA!!!…

Kk inuf…I got home…shower…send my bro to bus stop cuz rainin…heavily…it’s like rain…no rain…rain…no rain…haa…den…go smoke…got home…my mom was like…”eh…why smell smoke??? U got smell???”…den I was like…”yar”..haa…fucker siaa…OOPPSS…I’VE JUZ SHOUT OUT TO MY DAD ‘PERVERT!’!!…cuz he wanna try ta see wat I’m doin den I covered d comp’s screen…I said to him to respect my privacy…den he said dat in diz house…thre will be NO privacy…siaaakk jeek…den I attacked him sayin dat might as well he shower wf d door open ryte…den he was like “yes”…siak aarrh…dats wen I called him a pervert…

Yar…as I was sayin…I was “yar”…den entered…stand infront of d door fer awhile to make the smell go away…stupid she…den go eat…eat eat eat…sleep…fer like 1 hr 45 mins since 6 p.m…den woke up wf dried n painful eyes..funny thyn…wen I sleep…cn still hear d livin room’s surroundings…den…wen I woke up…myself…I wok…my mom was like…”eh…I smell smoke”..inmmy heart…I was like…AGAIN…conclusion…smell of smoke still stickin on my shirt…den she told me to check if thre’s fire still on in d kitchen as I was in d kitchen…den I was like no…DUHNESS…haa…

Dats all lah…I nid to do my lit homework…typin ony…I love it…I love lit…k inuf…but not 100% lah…I still love history u noe…but I din get…cuz I’m ok wf lit…k bye…Aaphot signin off…

~~~~~~~Aaphot~~~~~~~

I was chosen...

2007-04-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

Boring day fer today...nthn much to do...hang out wf frens...smoke...blabla...n blabla...den go home...do my art fer d guest of honour...N IT'S NOT DOOONNEE!!!!!!!!!!(I was chosen specially n thys???uh...sry to hurt all d other art students...hee)I lied to Miss Pushpa dat it's done whre as I've juz started...but now...it's almost don laa...abit happy...but not so happy...IT'S STILL UNPAINTED!!! but it's ok...it will be done wfin minutes...Luuuucky to day no homework...heee...*tweece*...or is it '*tweese*'...or...'*twist*'...or...or...uh...nvm....anyways...milo is nut botherin me...i dun gif a boob job nor a nose or stomach or ass...w8...is thre such thyngs as stomach or ass job??? HAAAA!!! Kk...inuf is inuf...too much...SEHA STYLE BTOL...HAAA...only we ppl understand...we ppl as in ppl dat me n yayat hangs out wf...heee...*tweece*(again)...or is it '*tweese*'...or...'*twist*'...or...or...uh...nvm...dats all...
Note:...I can even live w/o u cuz i still have my frends wf me n they care fer me...understand me...n believe in me in changing...I luv them better den luv u...(Luvs to:yayat,mira,farah,nifa,amira,aishah,far,dewi,ayu)
[specially:juju,shai,sap,yana.]

~~~~~~~AaphOt~~~~~~~

why must it happen this way...

2007-04-15T15:49:00.000+08:00

Why must it happen this way??? I hate my life…being like this…being used…being dumped…do people even care??? Well guess wat??? I dun care…I dun even care of wat people think cuz they only think fer themselves n I hate them…

C’mon laa…I can stand on my own two feet…u wanna fyte…lets fyte…bring as many people as u want…wat makes u think I wud loose…to think again…why r u guyz afraid to face me wen I was thre but was brave enuf to say werds on the phone…well guess wat??? Ur werds dun scare me…not even abit…I am totally ready fer everything n if u think u can take me down easily…u better think twice becuz I might look like how I am bgut u do not noe wat’s inside of me…

People have been givin me dat stare…like…I noe u r…kinda stare…they suck laa…assholes…bitches…jerks…bunch of fraks…I noe I’m popular in school…but I dun think ur stare is acceptable…

My guy suck…I’m sory but it’s the truth…he cnnot even protect me…even cnnot even fyte back…n guess wat…he dun noe how to use his brains…frends r people hu care n understand…if ur frebds r like dat my dear…they shud be ok with us…but nooo…they r not…instead…they r tryin their best to let u stay away from me…c’mon…how my fends can be ok??? They’re fine with mi…but at the same tyme…try their best to let mi change…ur frend chose to take the shortcut instead…which is try to scare me with their unscaredable werds…I’ve had inuf of thys…my frends were shock to see u doin nuthyn when I passed by u n ur bestiez wateva fuck…dats it…

As fer my frends….diz is wat I’ve gotta say…after him…thre wud not be anyone else…cuz no one can replace his luv…n to find out…I find it a true luv…if he really luvs me…he wud sacrifice anythyn fer mi juz like wat I did fer him…I feel like I’m bein used n cheated…

Dats all u guyz…n 1 more advise…before getting attached…rain some qns on d guy ferst to see if he’s true to ya…don’t make any mistake like mine cuz u’ll regret ur whole life…trust mi…
~~~~~~~AaphOt~~~~~~~